What’s the Point of Dreaming anyway?

Let’s be honest.  We have four kids under 10, 2 of which are under 4.  We are tired.

And when you miss out on sleep for 3 or 4 days in a row (a routine occurrence in our world) you start to feel beat up and burned out.

I am already considering reasons why I ought to stick with my job a bit longer, to make a more “prudent” transition into the working world.

Is this actually prudent, or is it just fear?  

In the last 30 days, we have just spent $30k on a new Septic system (because it couldn’t be placed in a convenient place that would have been about half as much), $3200 on a new transmission (how does a manual transmission even break anyway? Yet 5th gear was definitely just gone), have to replace a shower (at $6000) and lost our tenants in our little ADU.  

Things feel tight.  Our savings have been beaten up a bit, and the end of the year is probably a bad time to start a business as everyone starts getting into Holiday mode.

Honestly, there are lots of reasons to delay.

And it looks a bit like I won’t be able to do all 3 coaching calls in November, which gives me another reason to delay, as the cost of those calls is high, and the idea that I might only get 1 or 2 greatly offends my sense of justice, and my desire to not waste money.

And maybe the company won’t do the awful thing they planned to do.  I’m speaking out against it  and perhaps having an effect?  Maybe things aren’t so bad?

But is “not so bad” what I want the next decade of my life to look like?

It feels like the years are slipping away, and I am not building anything.