How do you be still when everything is swirling around you?

I’m drawing a blank.  Life has gotten a little more more in the last couple of days, and I’m struggling to keep up with the new normal, or even just my expectations and fears about the new normal.  That kind of seems like a waste of energy, since I don’t really know what life will be like in the coming weeks and months.  But it’s how I tend to operate-I’m usually either ruminating about the past, or anticipating and worrying about the future.  Not great at just being where and when I am.  

How can I learn to sit still and be?  How can I learn to pull myself back to the present?

Here’s the thing- it never stops.  There’s never a moment when you are done, all the cooking is done, all the laundry is done, all the appointments are done, all the booking babysitters and communicating with people is done, the kids are done, they don’t need you anymore, the bread is done, and you don’t need more bread 2 days from now, the house is clean and it won’t get dirty again, the floor will never be sticky again…oh wait, there is that moment…that’s the moment when everyone is dead.  Life is in movement all the time, and life ceases when the movement ceases.  

So how do I find peace within that movement?  How do I anticipate the future, accept the onslaught of the coming week, without forfeiting my present to fear, anxiety, worry, and grasps for control?






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