I have my second entrepreneur coaching client starting this week. And my first has been going well, with lots of performance breakthroughs, and lots of progress.
In my own life, I’ve started coming up against the very deep personal issues that define the territory everyone must eventually go through in order to really master themselves.
I’ve met such an overwhelming amount of internal resistance in my endeavors, it’s been hard to move forward.
I’ve been working to reengage at work, and in my own life, and to stop feeding negative thought patterns.
I’ve started to realize my cynicism, victimhood, and depression are all just coping mechanisms to try to connect with people, get rest, and have fun.
There are parts of me that just don’t get expressed, and when I stay bottled up too long, a lot of interior energy starts to come out in bad ways, when really I just need to hang out with friends and sleep and exercise.
When you’re not enjoying life, the resentment and depression can start to build so that you can get the courage to say no to something.
But what if I just said no in the first place, because I was less worried about letting people down?
So I’m trying to put my head back on in the right way, and make good choices each day.
I’m working to recognize what’s already good about my situation. Rewriting bits and pieces instead of trying to flip the whole table all at once.
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