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Husband wants me to commit to blogging every day.  How do I feel about that?  I want to be good at writing.  I want to be really good at writing.  I so much want to be good at writing…that I don’t write.  Pretty much ever.  I never feel like I have the time, focus, energy,…

Sometimes I feel a bit hungover after I discuss my goals.  Like sharing them, casually, dissipates them.  Like some of the power of action goes out of you, as though you’ve actually done them. And then, answering people’s questions can feel tiresome, since you don’t know all the answers yet. What good is all this…

Ok, husband.  I have been cleaning my stove every day since…

Solving your problems, even little ones.  Just replaced the screens in our sun porch with pet proof screens so that our kitten stops tearing out of it. I sent the emails yesterday.  Today, I feel a bit discouraged, as though this is just more or less impossible, and that I will have to do a…

Normally, I would not have sent those emails.  I cold-emailed 20 executives trying to set up an exploratory meeting so I could learn more about what they’re doing at their companies. I’m not yet committed to starting at a particular date, or moving on from my  job, so the most I can actually do is…

In my coaching session yesterday (Is there an emoji that encapsulates the feeling of being excited to do something while simultaneously mourning your bank account?) my coach said something very interesting. Me: “I have been having trouble engaging fully at work because I’m not sure if I will be there in a couple months, due…

I had a couple conversations today about my consulting idea, and the people I was talking to kept bringing up problem after problem that would be hard to solve. And for a lot of them, I kept getting really excited.  Because I liked those problems.  I know they’re hard, but I want to solve them.…

I had a hard conversation about lots of things with the VP of engineering, and even briefly pitched the idea of using my current team as a case study for the improvements I’d like to make with my prospective business partner in such a way that we could use it as a platform for what…

It’s embarrassing how infrequently I clean my stove.  It gets dirty basically as soon as I clean it, and then for the next week or so I get a pang of anxiety every time I walk into the kitchen.  I tell myself I don’t have the time, and it feels like that is true.  I’m…

And here we come to the biggest blocker in all of my previous attempts to start an online business. How do I find out if people are willing to pay me what I would like to get paid for the thing that I am thinking about making? All the steps to get there seem onerous,…

I would be so creatively productive if I could just shower for like 3 hours a day.  The shower is my thinking place, where I come up with my best ideas, where I get my thoughts in order, and where I compose my final drafts. Yesterday in the shower, the image of bread came to…

I have a problem where whenever I do anything fun, and come back to my normal life, I find myself being a big hungover. Not the alcohol hangover.  Fun hangover.  In fact, I’m not planning to drink anything until we’ve made our first sale (of whatever it is we end up doing).  Until this business…

The 6 year old just came up to me and asked me to smell his teeth.  It’s a Saturday. So there’s no time.  And no energy.  The 3 and 9 year olds fight, and the baby climbs on you, and the 6 year old sends an endless stream of monologue into your ear as you…

The baby has his hands down his diaper and I don’t have time to write. I never have time to write, or to practice the banjo, or to mop my floor, or to read Dracula, or to put up art, start a business, shop for clothes that fit, organize the garage, or basically anything that…

I just signed the (expensive – $2000 / month for 3 calls) coaching agreement.  I remind myself that part of the value is that it hurts (how is paying to hurt yourself a good idea?  What’s wrong with you, masochist?) and that will help me get committed.  And that several people I know have highly…

What’s the next step?  Work backwards. We want to have a million dollars, roughly, at the end of one year.  What does that business look like? It means we have to 1) create  a business and sell it at a multiple at the end of a year, or 2) create a business that averages 80k…

Let’s be honest.  We have four kids under 10, 2 of which are under 4.  We are tired. And when you miss out on sleep for 3 or 4 days in a row (a routine occurrence in our world) you start to feel beat up and burned out. I am already considering reasons why I…

What’s the end goal?  What are the constraints? Our vision for the next year is a fully paid off life, embedded in our community, with the time and money freedom needed to be active contributors in the place where we live. Our goal, over the next year, to help make that happen, is to pay…

“How should we start this?” “ I don’t know, I’m tired.” “You’re going to be tired.  You have 5,000 children.“ We actually only have 4 kids. We’ve been living what might look like on the surface the American Dream.  We own our own home, and we live in Southern California (the amazing weather and beautiful…

Recently, at work, I had decided to pull out all the stops, and try to get to the next level.  It has been a bit of a struggle, and I decided to take more ownership of my situation.  I had asked for and gotten approval to get some executive coaching to help me be more…